I attended this amazing panel session this weekend at Mythic Worlds here in Seattle. The members of the panel were Stephanie and Raven Grimassi and Orion Foxwood. I felt so privileged to be there. The discussion was wonderful and centered around Walking Between the Worlds. The definitions were amazing and the stories of experiences even more so.

It got me to thinking about how we can each use our gift, use what we have to better our world. Things right now are in such turmoil all over the world. A few years ago, something told me that I was suppose to help... I was suppose to use and build on what I know, learn more and use it to help others learn to move forward through all that is happening in our world today. So, now here I am, and the brink of changing careers, changing the direction of my life and yet I am still so unsure of where I am suppose to go.

Our Adian is home! She walked into the house about 1:15 this afternoon!!!! She is home and safe. Thank you everyone for everything!!! spread the word!

This is my  niece. She has been missing since early Tuesday morning and is in desperate need of her meds. Please help. If you are in the Eastern WA, North Idaho area, please share. Contact myself or David Hart, her dad. Contact info is on the poster. Thank you! 

A wedding in my family

So as of 4:00 this after noon and I am now the proud mom of a son in law... Yay! Wish I could have been there. Can't wait to see and get pictures. Yay Sharaya and Mike!!!
And here is the first kiss picture!!!

They are standing in front of the frozen waterfall next to Mendenhall Glacier in Juneau, AK. 

Ok... Trying to prepare mentally to do my yearly wheel of the year spread for this next year... Yes, this takes days for me to prepare as I need to get outside of myself, out of my own head, so that I don't taint or accidentally taint or guide the reading. I am sure others who read for themselves know what I'm talking about. I do this each year using my Celtic Tree Oracle (my favorite deck of cards).... What will next year bring? Will it be heading in the direction I hope it will or will I have to do a lot of changing to make things go the way I want. I am hoping that I have done what I need to this year to push next year on a reasonably straight path towards my goals. I could use a year of a reasonably straight path, lol...

Funny how even though we know what's good for us, we don't do it

This fall has been a long one. No, life is good. I am working. I can afford to live. Thing are going well other then the job I mentioned, you know, where I am working. I am a special education teacher who works specifically with students with emotional behavioral disorders. I have been doing this now for a few years and have come to the conclusion that many of these kids really should be accessing a different kind of education, public school is not really the best place for them. Don't get me wrong, the ones I am talking about are the extreme cases who make it so that no one in the class can learn. That, however, is not what I am talking about here. I am talking about how, in the scheme of life, the every day life that we live, we do not do the things that we know are good for us- the things that we know from experience hold us together and help us stay balance and in control. 

Some of the things I have been neglecting though I know they help keep me balanced are meditation, casting, furthering my OBOD studies as I am now working on the Ovate Grade. These are all things that I enjoy but have been reluctant, the best word I can think of, to do for no particular reason other then just letting other things get in the way. 

Over this winter break, which by the way is not way long enough, I am working to get back into a healthy routine including the above mentioned activities along with regular exercise to get myself back in shape and allow me to deal with the stresses of work in a more healthy and efficient manner. With this I am hoping to go back to work in January with new vigor, new outlook, and a healthier outlook and attitude in what I need to do vs. what I love to do. 

Helping

As we move through our lives we meet many people. So many people come from so many places, so many experiences, so many different lives. There are no two lives that are the same and there are no two people who are the same. 

I have seen so much abuse, so much sadness, so much pain through the things I do, the jobs I have had, the people I have worked  so hard to help and sometimes it feels like it gets to be to much. Each night I try to let it go as I go to bed, I try to let it all go, everything I have seen in a day. Sometimes I am successful, sometimes I am not. 

Today was an emotional day, not sure if it was me, something else, or just a combination of both but I am hoping that I will be able to get it all go so I can meet these people, these children again tomorrow in an effort to help them and make them realize that I am only there to help them. 

hmmmm. Really need to stop thinking so much.

So there is a guy. I kinda like him... Fighting running. Wish I didn't have to fight running just because I kinda like someone. 

Stuck

It seems that i am stuck. Here I am again looking for a job. Interviews that I don't hear back from. Jobs that I apply for and nothing yet. Hmmm. Really would like to find something continuing - a little tired of this stress every year.

Trying to get started on my Ovate courses also and can't seem to get into the right frame of mind. I am all a go until it's time at night to do my initiation and I am always no longer in the right frame of mind or to tired. There is the trouble with the Tutor thing also. I haven't heard from anyone in three months.

I will performing my third public ritual on Saturday, day after tomorrow, and I haven't even written it yet. Something else I need to do tomorrow.

I need a break, a vacation, so badly. Summer school starts Monday - no break for me until the end of July. This is a bit of a negative sounding post for someone who has been quite positive about things for months. Maybe I just need to get things out. Will probably delete it anyway.

Time for bed. Night all! Have a great Friday tomorrow!