Asking Questions, Needing Answers

I need answers to so many questions that spin and roam around in my head. I have been pondering them for such a long long time but am unsure how to get them. I see things around me that tell me that the answers are here, or that a message is here but I feel like it's just out of my reach. I can't grasp it. It seems to float just out of my reach. 


Outside my new apartment, there is a constant murder of crows in the trees, on the buildings, around always. When i send healing out to other, they see my crows. 

I move through my day, going to work, working with the kids I love, but they are not going to allow me to continue this. They had me in to clean up their mess and then let me go. At the most, a couple more weeks to go and then no more. I won't go back there again if they ask. They can't tell me no again. 

I think I am in love with a man that I don't think will ever love me. I have loved him for a long time now but it seems to be slipping on. Moving on. A few days ago, I was asked out by another and I am so excited. Attentions unsought seem so nice. I am looking forward to our date on Tuesday, whatever it might turn out to be. 

Where am I suppose to be. Why am I here. Why do I feel that there are things I am supposes to do, which I feel I am doing, but I continue to run into walls. Questions that need answered but I am not sure where to find these answers.