My Prophet for a day!

Ok, so I made the mistake of starting this new year by doing two card readings on myself for the next year. Bad idea. I did one Celtic Tree Oracle and a Rider Wait reading both asking just basically what will next year look like. Both came up more of what I have always had. Just want things to be better for us.

Today Scott mentioned something to me in the group that I am going to take heed in. Going to watch The Secret again and try to get myself back in that frame of mind. Need to be there. I know it works, that it is the truth. To manifest what we want we have to believe it, know it, live it. It's so difficult, however, when life has proceeded to tell you different no matter what you try to do. Thank you Scott for the reminder of where I need to be and what I need to do... My prophet of today... Bright Blessings to you!!!

Winter Solstice Celebration: the Return of the Sun

So I had such a wonderful time this morning. I attended my first ever Druid event... Actually my first ever pagan event of any kind. I went to a winter solstice gathering this morning to welcome back the sun, that we did not see by the way. it was cloudy and over cast and even rained on us a little but what do you expect. We are in Seattle after all. So, there was maybe 15 people there including me. We Chanted, Awen'd, and watched the sunrise. I missed the closing of the circle, was not there yet. But was there when it was reopened. It was great, nice people and lots of positive energies. 

 

The park where we met for the ceremony is called Gasworks... The sundial where we are standing above it beautiful. It was to wet and dark (it never really got light this morning) to get pics but I found a few below online. I also included a video here i took of the park. Enjoy. 

Essential Baking Co. 1604 North 34th Street  Seattle, WA 98103

Afterwards we had breakfast at a cute little place called Essential Baking Co... It was amazing. Had a Shiitake mushrooms and asiago omlette for breakfast, good conversation with some very interesting people, and just a great time. Hope to do it again soon.

The Bard

What is this
I hear deep within
my minds eye
the words of
life, a tale
a story of whom
to tell of such events
love and courage
war and peace
a hero against
the villain unheard
deep within
a stirring of emotion
excitement and drama
she has won and
he is done and
together they are
to forever be.

by me 12/08/2012

I Am

I am the earth full of wisdom
I am the sky full of peace
I am the ocean full of love
Ceridwen grant me wisdom
Brigid grant me peace and love
Morrigan grant me courage and protection
All of these things I need to be my best me.

Hidden path

A path private and personal
Through a life so unsure
Watching for answers
Searching for direction
Across a great plain
Through mountains of snow
The moon ahead
The sun above
Water beneath me
As I struggle to find
My way down a hidden
path of insight and confusion
Into a world of love and hate
Color fades into the night
And I am still lost
Walking along my personal path

by me  12/01/2012

Asking Questions, Needing Answers

I need answers to so many questions that spin and roam around in my head. I have been pondering them for such a long long time but am unsure how to get them. I see things around me that tell me that the answers are here, or that a message is here but I feel like it's just out of my reach. I can't grasp it. It seems to float just out of my reach. 


Outside my new apartment, there is a constant murder of crows in the trees, on the buildings, around always. When i send healing out to other, they see my crows. 

I move through my day, going to work, working with the kids I love, but they are not going to allow me to continue this. They had me in to clean up their mess and then let me go. At the most, a couple more weeks to go and then no more. I won't go back there again if they ask. They can't tell me no again. 

I think I am in love with a man that I don't think will ever love me. I have loved him for a long time now but it seems to be slipping on. Moving on. A few days ago, I was asked out by another and I am so excited. Attentions unsought seem so nice. I am looking forward to our date on Tuesday, whatever it might turn out to be. 

Where am I suppose to be. Why am I here. Why do I feel that there are things I am supposes to do, which I feel I am doing, but I continue to run into walls. Questions that need answered but I am not sure where to find these answers. 

So I have moved on. If I am to sub, that is ok. I can totally do that. We make enough money to live well on and sales are picking up for the holiday's. Hoping that will keep growing. Over the winter break when I have two weeks off, going to come up with some new ideas for the website site along with finding some new ways to advertise. I wonder what it would cost to get into some magazines and such. Hmm. Going to have to look into that.

Peace be with you all, find joy in the earth and the beauty she gives us every day and every night.

Ok trying very hard to stay up and keep my spirits up. The tribe did not hire me even though the school wanted me. So, the job I am doing will end soon. I was angry and upset yesterday, today I just do not want to go back to subbing. Ugh! I so was sure though I knew there was a good chance they would not. Ugh. Do not know what do to now. Trying to find out what is left to do to sub for the districts where I live... not having to get up at five would be amazing. We will see what happens I guess. 

OBOD Initiation

Initiation! Yay! This time around I have the CDs because before, somewhere around Gwersi 5 or 6 I decided that just the books were just not working for me so I ordered the CDs too... I was so excited to see that I was on the lesson including the initiation as the first time I did it, it never felt quite ... quite like I thought it should. So, without all of the pomp... just me sitting in the middle of my bed... candle in hand, headphones attached to my phone where i have all of my lessons stored in MP3 format, I go through the initiation saying the works from the CD and answering the questions of the initiation out loud. I started with entering my sacred grove and the light body exercise which, as this is my second time through these (i have already been through gwersi 21) I did this with ease. I then went through the initiation as it is on the CDs. It was amazing and felt so complete. Today I walk with a new found peace in my heart and strength in my mind. Loving it. Yay!!! 

New Peace

Bring me a sense of peace
Contact divine
The crow shows me how
to feel, to calm
Following from day to day
I learn to watch for
Them through among the way
Peace in my heart
Peace in my home
Divine goddess within
Me through the crow
Of my divine being