Monday, February 13, 2012

Beginnings

A story I wrote for a friends writing contest on facebook... I think it's pretty good.. lol...

Beginnings

I sit in the middle of my bed, concentrating hard on not concentrating because all I want to do is make the connection that I know is there just waiting to be made. The never ending rain drips outside on the holly rattling the leaves only to drip again as their little cups tip the water onto the ground. The faint scent of sandalwood and lavender helps me to clear my mind. I can feel  tendrils of the scent wrap around me, pulling negative energies asunder as I release the stresses of the day.

The flame flickering from the white taper in my hands warms the air in front of my face as I stare into it.

“Am I alone here” I think into the flickering flame. The flame stills to a stead glow telling me the answer that I already know. No, I am not alone.

“Do I have ancestors here with me tonight?” The flame goes wild.

“Have I met these relatives, ancestors who are here with me tonight?” The flame is completely still for a few moments, and then gives me two flickers. There is more than one with me here tonight.

“My Goddess, my soul, myself, my being, are you here with me tonight?” The flame sits motionless.

“My dear girl, of course I am here. I am forever here for I am you, I am within you, as you are me and are within me.”

A tingling spreads through my body. I have no question who owns this new voice. The voice inside my head, around my room, filling my sacred space. I have never heard it before but I have dreamt it. I have felt it in my very being, in my soul, in my mind,  in my body.

“I have been waiting for you. I have been waiting for you to find your way, your way to your true destiny, you way to your true self. I have been here waiting for you all along. Now that you are here, you are part of me as I am part of you and we will change this world together.”

There was a swirl of light wrapping me in a warming embrace. I felt the light push all of those energies, those feelings, those things that stress our days away. Putting my hands flat on the bed, the earth pulled the light from me into the ground, trapping the energies to never worry me again. I felt my heart enliven, my body tingling, and my mind spinning trying to grasp what was happening to me.

“You are a Goddess in me and I will never leave you. “

As I looked into the flame, the feeling grew inside me and to this day it has never left me. I speak with her daily even if just to say good morning. Now as I plunge daily into my studies, she guides my hand and my mind to where I need to be as we are one, forever one.

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