Sunday, May 26, 2013

So I am in love with a man who cannot love me. Not sure how I get myself into these situations. I wish there was a way that I could get out. He is suffering from the loss of his wife, a wife who chose to leave her family and husband for a life of being single to find, as she told him, "someone to grow old with." I have watched him over the years try hard to save his marriage, even tried to find ways to help him save his marriage, but it ended anyway. Now, here we are, I am seeing him but can't have him. I watch him hurt, a pain that i do not really understand as no one has ever loved me like that. I would not leave him as I would never want to give him the pain of someone else leaving him. The pain in his eyes causes pain in my heart as I have not way to ease his pain. I know that time will heal him, he will and is finding a way back into the world, finding himself and is way to be happy again on his own. But will that ever in the future include me. I am here for him with all that I can give. But I hope someday to be the woman he looks at with love in his eyes as I look upon him. Is it possible? No one else has ever loved me as such. Will this thing happen for me? 

2 comments:

  1. Hi... that is a hard place to be in! If he doesn't know how you feel, I suggest you tell him when the time is right. If he is a person of honor, he will not string you along, and you may break up. But in my experience, opening up about how I felt to another in a similar situation was the only way I was able to move on. I wish you happiness and love.

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  2. Thank you hon.... thank you so much... we will have to see what happens. Seeing him this weekend maybe and seeing how he relates to a few of my friends will tell me a lot on where this is going to go. :-) Hugs my dear...

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