A day in the life

What an interesting day. I still did not find the earth/dirt I need to move forward with my Gwers. Gotta get that done. My mom remembered that our Tree, Contorted Filbert, was dug from the ground and put into the pot he is in at our last house so we are going to lift him out and take soil from the pot, replacing it with potting soil which he could probably use anyway. this will give me natural earth from the ground that is not completely full of rocks. Yay!!! So I promise to get that done tomorrow.

Jaime came by today. He signed the papers with no problems and now that part is done. I just need to go file the papers. Yay! It was strange actually having him sign them. Like a final thing even though we have been separated for 9 years, seemed strange. I do not trust him, could not be with him again, but he still holds a large part of my heart. What can I say. It was good to see him today and I hope all stays well with him and that we keep in touch.

Received an email from Darren today also. He has decided that he needs more time. I completely understand. 24 years of marriage. Teen aged son that he is trying hard to do right by. It's all so confusing and I can't even imagine what he is going through. I have never been there. I emailed him back, told him that I am here for him and whatever he needs. Lets just get together, do dinner and a movie... be friends and take a step, several steps back... Hoping he agrees. I truly do love him... Not anything I can do about that. But not going to stop living for him either. To much time has been wasted in my life being afraid or waiting and I cannot do that. Right now he is the person I want to be with and I have no plans in any other. That is where I am at right now.

So everyone says that I got the job I interviewed for on Friday. Resource room at Bethel Middle School. I so hope this is true. I so need this job and without it i do not know where I am suppose to go next. Waiting to hear is killing me, hoping to hear something tomorrow even though they said they hoped to make offers by Tuesday. I have another interview, in Tacoma, elementary Resource room... That would be awesome too... But I truly would like this one better I think. We will see... Oh, I even got the guts up to ask my pendulum if I got the job and it has told me  yes ever night for the last two nights... and a couple times yesterday. I ask if I got the job and it says yes. I ask if I will start working for Bethel middle School this week and it says yes. And I ask if I will receive my first paycheck in September for my new job and it also says Yes. We are hoping that with the signing of the contract, I will be able to rent a place quickly so that we can get moved right away. With the check and the loan that I am hoping to be able to get on the car, $2000 - $2500 more, we should be able to hire movers and get moved easily and then work to pay that original and this additional money off within a few months paying this car off quickly. At the point, we will work to open that store and start searching for the property, the site for our first Hobbit house which I still hope to build next summer resolving any rent problems in the future. We will then be in our own home. Yay!!!


Anyway, what a day. Tomorrow is on it's way and looking at the clock it's already here. I do not, cannot, however, think of it as tomorrow until I sleep so off I go. Time to sleep and get ready for a new day and a new week... which should be an amazingly busy and wonderful week if all goes as it is suppose to go over the next few days... Yay! Night all and blessed be.