Winter Solstice Celebration: the Return of the Sun

So I had such a wonderful time this morning. I attended my first ever Druid event... Actually my first ever pagan event of any kind. I went to a winter solstice gathering this morning to welcome back the sun, that we did not see by the way. it was cloudy and over cast and even rained on us a little but what do you expect. We are in Seattle after all. So, there was maybe 15 people there including me. We Chanted, Awen'd, and watched the sunrise. I missed the closing of the circle, was not there yet. But was there when it was reopened. It was great, nice people and lots of positive energies. 

 

The park where we met for the ceremony is called Gasworks... The sundial where we are standing above it beautiful. It was to wet and dark (it never really got light this morning) to get pics but I found a few below online. I also included a video here i took of the park. Enjoy. 

Essential Baking Co. 1604 North 34th Street  Seattle, WA 98103

Afterwards we had breakfast at a cute little place called Essential Baking Co... It was amazing. Had a Shiitake mushrooms and asiago omlette for breakfast, good conversation with some very interesting people, and just a great time. Hope to do it again soon.

The Bard

What is this
I hear deep within
my minds eye
the words of
life, a tale
a story of whom
to tell of such events
love and courage
war and peace
a hero against
the villain unheard
deep within
a stirring of emotion
excitement and drama
she has won and
he is done and
together they are
to forever be.

by me 12/08/2012

I Am

I am the earth full of wisdom
I am the sky full of peace
I am the ocean full of love
Ceridwen grant me wisdom
Brigid grant me peace and love
Morrigan grant me courage and protection
All of these things I need to be my best me.

Hidden path

A path private and personal
Through a life so unsure
Watching for answers
Searching for direction
Across a great plain
Through mountains of snow
The moon ahead
The sun above
Water beneath me
As I struggle to find
My way down a hidden
path of insight and confusion
Into a world of love and hate
Color fades into the night
And I am still lost
Walking along my personal path

by me  12/01/2012

Asking Questions, Needing Answers

I need answers to so many questions that spin and roam around in my head. I have been pondering them for such a long long time but am unsure how to get them. I see things around me that tell me that the answers are here, or that a message is here but I feel like it's just out of my reach. I can't grasp it. It seems to float just out of my reach. 


Outside my new apartment, there is a constant murder of crows in the trees, on the buildings, around always. When i send healing out to other, they see my crows. 

I move through my day, going to work, working with the kids I love, but they are not going to allow me to continue this. They had me in to clean up their mess and then let me go. At the most, a couple more weeks to go and then no more. I won't go back there again if they ask. They can't tell me no again. 

I think I am in love with a man that I don't think will ever love me. I have loved him for a long time now but it seems to be slipping on. Moving on. A few days ago, I was asked out by another and I am so excited. Attentions unsought seem so nice. I am looking forward to our date on Tuesday, whatever it might turn out to be. 

Where am I suppose to be. Why am I here. Why do I feel that there are things I am supposes to do, which I feel I am doing, but I continue to run into walls. Questions that need answered but I am not sure where to find these answers. 

So I have moved on. If I am to sub, that is ok. I can totally do that. We make enough money to live well on and sales are picking up for the holiday's. Hoping that will keep growing. Over the winter break when I have two weeks off, going to come up with some new ideas for the website site along with finding some new ways to advertise. I wonder what it would cost to get into some magazines and such. Hmm. Going to have to look into that.

Peace be with you all, find joy in the earth and the beauty she gives us every day and every night.

Ok trying very hard to stay up and keep my spirits up. The tribe did not hire me even though the school wanted me. So, the job I am doing will end soon. I was angry and upset yesterday, today I just do not want to go back to subbing. Ugh! I so was sure though I knew there was a good chance they would not. Ugh. Do not know what do to now. Trying to find out what is left to do to sub for the districts where I live... not having to get up at five would be amazing. We will see what happens I guess. 

OBOD Initiation

Initiation! Yay! This time around I have the CDs because before, somewhere around Gwersi 5 or 6 I decided that just the books were just not working for me so I ordered the CDs too... I was so excited to see that I was on the lesson including the initiation as the first time I did it, it never felt quite ... quite like I thought it should. So, without all of the pomp... just me sitting in the middle of my bed... candle in hand, headphones attached to my phone where i have all of my lessons stored in MP3 format, I go through the initiation saying the works from the CD and answering the questions of the initiation out loud. I started with entering my sacred grove and the light body exercise which, as this is my second time through these (i have already been through gwersi 21) I did this with ease. I then went through the initiation as it is on the CDs. It was amazing and felt so complete. Today I walk with a new found peace in my heart and strength in my mind. Loving it. Yay!!! 

New Peace

Bring me a sense of peace
Contact divine
The crow shows me how
to feel, to calm
Following from day to day
I learn to watch for
Them through among the way
Peace in my heart
Peace in my home
Divine goddess within
Me through the crow
Of my divine being

Today's Facebook Daily Question

Ok, do I thought this was a good questions and decided that it would make a good blog post also so here it is....


Daily Question: For some strange reason, there are people out there who feel they have to have a problem with what we believe to be true. How do you decide who knows truly who you are and who does not?

For me, other than in my work, keeping my belief system secret is not really an option. As I work to open my store, advertise my online store and move forward in my life, people are going to figure it out if I don't tell them anyway. At my work, one of the nice thing about being back at Muckleshoot, working for a tribe, their beliefs, though many are Catholic, are similar to mine anyway... Being Native American, the beliefs center around the earth and such anyway and my belief system as a druid is not so far off. They even do circle and smudging every morning with the elementary school. It's like coming home there.

When I first came “out of the broom closet”, I of course told my mom first as she lives with me. She is supportive, always has been and wants me to be happy. She see’s a calmness in me that was not there before (and kind of disappeared over the past few months, hee hee). I told the rest of my family about 2 years ago when I was looking at buying Mystic Wonders (which I now live directly behind). Figured it would be easier to tell them then have them figure it out when they came to see my store. Lol… I a very lucky as they are all supportive and understanding. My children always  knew to an extent and are supportive now. In fact, my son is following in my footsteps so to speak as he explores his own gifts.

So, who knows about me? Anyone who pays attention I would say. And for the most part, I have not run into any problems with it…

Though I will add, in looking for work as a teacher, I have had to keep my two lives completely separate as school districts now “google”  you before they ever call you for an interview. Finding references to my belief systems and my store did make it so that I did not ever get any calls for jobs… once I was able to complete separate the two, I was able to go back to work as a sub and eventually get interviews again. How wrong is that? 

I will post other answers to the question here as they come in. This question was posted in four places... Life's Mystical Journey Facebook Group... The SWWPA Facebook Group, My google+ and the forums. 

Samhain... The Veil thins, and new year begins.

As we draw closer to Samhain and Halloween, the veil is thin between the worlds. It's easier to make contact with the other side. What are you doing to do during this time when we can so easily contact our ancestors and those who lived before us?


I am going to first thank those who have been so diligent in helping me over the past year and a half. It's been such a hard time and even when I lost faith, many stayed to hit me over my head when I needed it. Many stayed to listen when I needed it. And many were just there to make sure I was never alone.

We are through the most difficult times now. I am working. Back at Muckleshoot and I feel so at home, much like I had never left. The kids have been glad to see me and have me back. The staff, most of them, seem to also feel that same way. I am back working with Kelley, whom I love dearly and Katherine is just down stairs. I feel so blessed to be back though a little nervous about waiting for them to hire me as a permanent teacher. Helen says do not worry. I will not worry when I sign that contract.


I have also gone back to school... again. Masters (professional) in Psychology this time. What I have always wanted to do. If I choose, will have to get my clinicals later but this is a start. Will be done around January 2014. Yay!



So, this night, this week, I will be thanking all of those who have stuck with me, those who have helped me through the past year. I will be looking for guidance to make sure I do not make the same mistakes again. I will be asking for healing for myself and guidance for my children as they make their way through this crazy world as adults. And I will be asking how I can be happy. I will spend this next year working on my Druid Studies, working on letting go of what I cannot change and control, and being happy in myself and with what life has given me. That is the key, being happy with what life has given me.

So many changes

So much has happened over the past week it's a wonder I have been able to keep up.  Not sure how I have but here I am.

So, I did it. Moved back north, in Lakewood now and so so happy and excited to be here. Everything is so close. Stores, parks, whatever we want or need. Today I even went to the ER (bronchitis) and it was only 10 minutes away, and I was in and out in less than an hour. Yay!!!

The apartment is wonderful. Every room is larger then the last two places we have lived except my mom's room and she spends very little time there. The fireplace is amazing to have again. The trees on the grounds are old and amazing, I can't wait to commune with them and get to know them better, and it's so amazingly quiet. It's so odd, I think, to move back to the city to get quiet and amazing trees.

Since moving such amazing things are happening. I got a call from Adele at Muckleshoot Monday to tell me about the high school sped teacher who left with no notice. They need someone and she thinks it should be me. I am working on it and while Monday it as a long term sub position, now it is a contracted full time job... I so want that job. The drive is about 40 minutes, not bad and it would be before rush hours.


I also got word today that I got into my Master's in Psychology program at University of Phoenix. Yay! My first class starts on Tuesday. Yay!!!

What a great week... Other then being sick, it's been amazing. And today I spoke with Darren and it looks like I will get to see him this weekend also. Yay!!!

Anyway, time for bed. Things to do tomorrow and Friday will go finish up the apartment. Thank the Goddess for helping me to turn things around. Bright blessings to all who read this and those who don't...

I could so use some help!!!

Happy Trees

Ok, so i wanted to post a picture of happy trees so I typed in happy trees and got this... I loved watching him when I was a kid... He and his Happy Trees!!!

RIP Bob Ross

Day 44 of 100 days of gratitude

Went north today to look at apartments and found nothing. One was two small, way to small especially for the money. The other was gorgeous but no ground floors available. The last one, actually the first was ok but didn't really like the complex. So, we moved on. I had talked to another complex just before we left and they were checking on the possibility of allowing Ziggi so we drove by on our way home. Absolutely everything we are looking for including having a two bedroom two bathroom... yay! Hopefully they have one available! That would be amazing. Anyway, we are going to look into that one. Also, mom is going to call and see if we can get paperwork to qualify Ziggi as a service animal so that we can get her in regardless of breed and with no deposit. Yay! This is going to be great. According to the person I spoke with today, they have half a month off rent right now so we could move in for $300... plus half a month prorated rent which means if we wait until the middle of the month, like the 13th, almost nothing... yay!!! And... on a side note, the apartment is located directly behind the old store, Mystic Wonders, where we would love to open our store... yay!!! Eerie and exciting and possibly meant to be? We'll see. yay!

I am grateful for a great day, things working out like they should and seeing that is it going to happen, and the strength and ability to find what we need.

Mystic Wonderes Shop... Hopefully soon to be Life's Mystical Journey

Lexington Apartments

Steilacoom Lake

Day 43 of 100 days of gratitude

Mom is recovering. Out of ICU today and in a regular room with the hopes of coming home tomorrow. She is still having difficult breathing but that should get better as the pneumonia clears up. The Staff all love her and are all very positive about her recovery. Yay! I am grateful to all of my friends for sending blessings to heal her and the fabulous doctors and staff who have taken such good care of her.

I am grateful to have an ex husband who cares so much that he calls to check on both of us... Also grateful to have a boyfriend who feels the same. 

Day 42 of 100 days of gratitude

So mom is doing so much better. I am grateful for all who put out the efforts to heal her. She should be home within a few days. Yay!

Day 41 of 100 days of gratitude

Today this will be short and sweet... well, maybe not so sweet. Today I am thankful for the amazing Doctors at Capital Medical Center in Olympia. After taking my mom in this morning they were on the ball, figured out what the problem was, and are treating it now so that she should be better soon. What a long day this one and it's only midnight... at 10:00 I looked at my phone and was surprised to see it was not 2am. Again, what a day. ugh. Time to sleep. I love you mom. Can't wait until you are back home. 

Day 40 of 100 days of gratitude

As difficult as things have been.. the depression that I am fighting, the financial.. or lack the of... the inability to find work that i can live on... kids a long long ways away... and everything else i can't mention here... I am grateful that I am me and not someone else. As I watch the lives of the people around me i am grateful that I am me and that I have the confidence and the strength to change my situation, to not give up, and to keep moving forward no matter what gets thrown at me... that is after a good cry, some really good chocolate, and a little bit of a tissy fit... hee hee.

Day 39 of 100 days of gratitude

Hmm. Lots of thinking this weekend. Decisions to be made. Can't keep living like this. We are moving north, back up to the Tacoma area... The school district there pay more, they are larger, and are actually hiring teachers again. Will sub, get to know the staff and principal's at the schools where i decide i want to teach, and work to get hired there. Also, will be making enough money to get my math endorsement so that I can teach middle and high school math. yay! Can go back to work for Sylvan in the afternoons after school is out. will all be good. Back up closer to my friends. Closer to Darren by an hour... Do not find anything bad about the move other then the actually move. Headed out. Hope to put a deposit on an apartment next week and move mid month to the end of Oct. As soon as we can. Hopefully sooner then later. yay!

I am grateful to find the time to think and make the big decisions and calm myself this past weekend. 

Day 38 of 100 days of gratitude

Today I am thankful for the strength to go to the court house and finally get my divorce filed today. I didn't even tell the judge who approved the fee waiver off today. Now if I can get my husband to chip in for half... 

Day 37 of 100 days of gratitude

Ok. So today I am grateful for friends who understand my idiosyncrasies and love me anyway, lol... and I am thankful that I think I know what I need to do next. Moving north to Tacoma so I can sub there. Get my foot in the door, find a school, are a series of schools that I love and try to get jobs there... that is the goal. Get out of here, back to the city where there are numerous things to do and places to be, and work and be happy. That is the goal now.

Day 36 of 100 days of gratitude

I know that it's tomorrow but since I went out and haven't been to bed yet, this post is for today. I am grateful for good friends who know it's time to get me out of my own head. A good friend took me to lunch today and then took me dancing. Had so much fun. We shut the place down... Thank you Jody so much for showing me such a great time and getting me out of the house. We need to do this again... Night all... :-) So time to sleep.

Once Upon A Time

Once Upon A Time
It's back a week from Sunday. Magic is coming!!!

Day 35 of 100 days of gratitude

Today I am grateful that I have a friend like FireFaerie... Someone who believes in me no matter what and always knows just what to say even when I am in such self doubt that I can't see past my own nose. Love you honey!!! 

Hon, which one is you and which one is me? 

Day 34 of 100 days of gratitude

Ok. Looking for things to be grateful for today. I am finding it difficult to find them... The principal had the decency to call me and tell me they went with someone else. He did say, however, that if it didn't work out, I had the job. I am still waiting to hear about the job at Bethel Middle School... We went and looked at an apartment in Tacoma today. Amazing apartment. indoor pool. two bedroom, two bathroom.. etc...  $800 per month... all good now we need to find the money to move... next week. if we move now, October is free...so off we go! we'll figure it out and next weekend we will be out of Lewis County... yay!!! 

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Long day

Ok, so yesterday i totally owned the interview for the elementary Sped. teacher. I so think I got this one and am hoping, expecting a call back on it today. I so hope. This waiting is killing me!

We also went around looking at houses yesterday. Some really great ones though there is one we kinda settled on. A large 3br/2ba duplex out in the East end of Spanaway. Large lot, fenced yard... great place with a double car garage... Would be the perfect place until we get our house built. Now I just need a payday. 

Day 33 of 100 days of gratitude

Today I am grateful for a full amount of Unemployment though I am not sure why I got it.
I am grateful for an understanding mother.
I am grateful for healthy wonderful kids.
I am grateful for friends who are amazing.
I am grateful for a car that takes me any where and every where. 

do you ever?

Do you ever feel that you are walking through a crown of people completely alone? Like you speak but no one hears? You see people look at you but they seem to stare right through you? As I walk through my life, the things that are happening to me right now in this moment, in this current time, I feel like I am screaming but no one is there to listen. I talk to people but feel like I speak to no one. I hear people talking but do not seem to be able to respond with any kind of thought or clarity. I try to move forward but feel that I am running in place. On ice taking steps but staying right where I am, or even moving slowly backwards. Backwards to the edge of a high cliff. Can anyone tell me what this means?

I had an interview Friday for what could be an amazing job. Everyone says I got it. This is the one. I even got up the guts to ask my pendulum and it has said three nights in a row that I got the job and that it will start this week. It even says that I am going to get a September paycheck which means we will be able to move ASAP which would be amazing. They said that they hoped to make an offer tomorrow so I am hoping to hear from them tomorrow. I have managed to stay positive. Keep looking forward, what will we do once I have this job. Rent a house. Moving back up north where we were so much happier. Why tonight as I get ready to go to bed do I find myself in tears. Tears that I can't explain. I can explain but it brings the negative to the surface and I know that if I want this job, that needs to go away. I just smudged myself with safe and am feeling so much better. But the fear. The fear that my life will never change. That this is the life I have now and that I am stuck here, with this, this life of stress, this life of not being able to pay my bills, no work, disappointment in myself and of others in me. I can't live with this any more and need help moving on.

Goddess please give me the strength to keep moving forward with positive energies and a positive outlook as I know that positivity breeds positivity where negativity does the same. Keep my pure, positive, and motivated to do what I need to do. Please take away and banish negative energies and thoughts from me never to return... I ask this now so it shall be done. So Mote It Be! 

Day 32 of 100 days of gratitude

Ok, so I got up on this beautiful Monday morning and checked to see what my unemployment was like I do every Monday morning and I got my full amount this week. I so don't get it but I am not complaining. Hmm. Strange. It's going to be a great day!






Today I am grateful that I can have patient with stupid people at the court house to refuse to tell me all on one visit what pages are missing while I am trying to file for divorce. Really? You need the order page to go with the fee waiver request. Ok, this is the third time I have had to come back. Can you look through the 10 pages there and let me know if there is anything else I am missing? No, I cannot give you legal advise. And this was from the judge!

Day 32 of 100 days of gratitude

Today I was grateful the patience to not go completely insane waiting to hear about the job. I was grateful on many levels that Jaime came by including that fact that it was just great to see him. Never realize how much you miss someone until they are not around for 10 months. I am also grateful that we are having such and wonderfully extended summer of warm weather without all of the rain. I know and realize that it's horrible with all of the fires that have been burning but I can say with fact that the sun has been a huge contributor to keeping me from getting depressed over the current situation... that by the way is about to get so so so much better! yay! 

A day in the life

What an interesting day. I still did not find the earth/dirt I need to move forward with my Gwers. Gotta get that done. My mom remembered that our Tree, Contorted Filbert, was dug from the ground and put into the pot he is in at our last house so we are going to lift him out and take soil from the pot, replacing it with potting soil which he could probably use anyway. this will give me natural earth from the ground that is not completely full of rocks. Yay!!! So I promise to get that done tomorrow.

Jaime came by today. He signed the papers with no problems and now that part is done. I just need to go file the papers. Yay! It was strange actually having him sign them. Like a final thing even though we have been separated for 9 years, seemed strange. I do not trust him, could not be with him again, but he still holds a large part of my heart. What can I say. It was good to see him today and I hope all stays well with him and that we keep in touch.

Received an email from Darren today also. He has decided that he needs more time. I completely understand. 24 years of marriage. Teen aged son that he is trying hard to do right by. It's all so confusing and I can't even imagine what he is going through. I have never been there. I emailed him back, told him that I am here for him and whatever he needs. Lets just get together, do dinner and a movie... be friends and take a step, several steps back... Hoping he agrees. I truly do love him... Not anything I can do about that. But not going to stop living for him either. To much time has been wasted in my life being afraid or waiting and I cannot do that. Right now he is the person I want to be with and I have no plans in any other. That is where I am at right now.

So everyone says that I got the job I interviewed for on Friday. Resource room at Bethel Middle School. I so hope this is true. I so need this job and without it i do not know where I am suppose to go next. Waiting to hear is killing me, hoping to hear something tomorrow even though they said they hoped to make offers by Tuesday. I have another interview, in Tacoma, elementary Resource room... That would be awesome too... But I truly would like this one better I think. We will see... Oh, I even got the guts up to ask my pendulum if I got the job and it has told me  yes ever night for the last two nights... and a couple times yesterday. I ask if I got the job and it says yes. I ask if I will start working for Bethel middle School this week and it says yes. And I ask if I will receive my first paycheck in September for my new job and it also says Yes. We are hoping that with the signing of the contract, I will be able to rent a place quickly so that we can get moved right away. With the check and the loan that I am hoping to be able to get on the car, $2000 - $2500 more, we should be able to hire movers and get moved easily and then work to pay that original and this additional money off within a few months paying this car off quickly. At the point, we will work to open that store and start searching for the property, the site for our first Hobbit house which I still hope to build next summer resolving any rent problems in the future. We will then be in our own home. Yay!!!


Anyway, what a day. Tomorrow is on it's way and looking at the clock it's already here. I do not, cannot, however, think of it as tomorrow until I sleep so off I go. Time to sleep and get ready for a new day and a new week... which should be an amazingly busy and wonderful week if all goes as it is suppose to go over the next few days... Yay! Night all and blessed be. 

My studies in Druidry

As promised, here I am with Chapter 5 of Druid Magic... In case, over the span of time that I have been neglecting my blog, you have forgotten what book I have been discussing, it's Druid Magic: The Practice of Celtic Wisdom by Maya Magee Sutton and Nicolas R. Mann.

Anyway, on to chapter 6, Druid Magus... what's a Druid Magus? It means a Druid Wise person. That is my goal. Isn't that the goal of all of us following any kind of Druid path? To me being druid means being wise. Learning the meaning of our world, learning to read what is around and you being able to make decisions on what you see and know. I dunno. Maybe that is just me. Anyway, moving on.

This chapter goes into the Discussion of the Goddess Bridgid ~ or Brigid, depending on who you ask.

In one myth, it is known that she is the daughter of Dagda and is one of the only deities known across the lands. You can find mention of Bridgid in writing of the Greek, Irish, Scottish, welsh, and more. In another tale, It is know that she is the daugher or Druid Noble, Dubhthach, and a slave mother, Broicseth. Someone born in this type of extreme delineates a special noble birth ~ an unusual being. In this story, before she could speak, she had prophesied that she herself would be the Goddess of Sovereignty over the land.



The Three Cauldron's 
In all areas of belief, it comes down to Bridgid being the Goddess of Patron of Healing, Smith-craft, and Poetic Inspiration. As Druids, we can think of these gifts as being from the Earth, the Sea, and the Sky.

• Earth: comes the gift of smith-craft or the blacksmith's knowledge of metallurgy. Metals come from the earth, the land and knowledge of this gives us power over the element of earth... the wisdom to work with it to the best of our own knowledge and skill. To be more specific, in smith-craft or blacksmithing, we learn that we can change what we see into what we need. A smith turns a hard black piece of steal into a sword, or a hammer to be used in trade or defense  Today we can take this skill to mean that we can change our ideas, our dreams, into what reality. We can manifest our dreams, our necessities into reality. With knowledge, patience and magic, we can make what we need and desire. 
• Sea: There are hundreds of healing wells across the UK, things from the old, coming from ancient Celtic tradition. All over the countries you can find these wells that have been dedicated to Bridgid... even after the Christians came and Bridgid became the Prophet Brigit, the wells are still held sacred in her name. To this day they are still held in high regard and are the target of thousands of pilgrimages a year for prayer, healing, and dedication. 
• Sky: cosmic inspiration. Need I say more? Well, ok then. Lol. She is the Goddess of inspired wisdom. She brings fourth or inspiration in all things. Brings us wisdom, poetic inspiration. The Druid word Awen is inspiration, wisdom... and this is one of Bridgid's gifts to us. 

In Druid wisdom, along with many other paths, it is knows that all things start as if from a cauldron. The cauldron in all thing is the symbol of the beginning, the womb from where we all come... the place of all beginnings. it is so here also.... another reason, it has been decided in this particular book at least and it makes sense to me, that the three aspects of Bridgid relates to us as humans... it speaks to the whole human, well rounded and healthy as we all wish to be. This is what I took from this chapter. The three gifts of Bridgid are healing, smithcraft, and poetic Inspiration. These relate to the three aspects of being human. Healing relating to the body, smithcraft to livelihood, work, caring for our minds (smart enough to take care of ourselves), and poetic inspiration as wisdom, our spirit. The book gives this comparison to other known deities...

After this part of the chapter, the book posed what I found to be interesting questions. It asked if I am complete according to the three aspects of Bridgid and I would have to say no. I work at healing but as I well know, I am much better at healing and taking care of others then I am myself, especially when times are so difficult as they are right now. Especially emotionally. I am a basket case much of the time. I am so bad at this that I know I should be meditating to help keep myself balanced and I have some amazing meditations, especially loving the ones by Phillip Carr-Gomm, but I do not do them so much of the time, putting them away and sleeping more then anything so I don't have to think about it. I am so much better when I do, but for some reason it's such a hassle until I actually get into it. Livelihood is something that comes and goes. I even went to school during my children's teen years to try to make a better life for us and myself but I have now been without any work for two years. Having to rely on others kills me and I am hoping that in light of current events (a really awesome job interview Friday) that this is about to change for the better again. Inspiration, Wisdom, Learning and knowledge would most definitely be my strength. I am great at learning, giving advise people swear by, and readings and such are wonderful as long as I don't do them for myself. See again, I am better at taking care of everything else then I am myself. I have the knowledge and the wisdom but seem to find it difficult to apply it to myself.



The Cauldron of Posey 
I am not going to go into this to much. It's much the same as above. Bridgid is known as the Goddess or Patron of the Hearth Fire, or Goddess of the Hearth and home... this explains a bit as to why. The cauldron of Posey are the three cauldron's as above described in an old Irish text the Cauldron's' of Posey. They are as follows.

The Wise Judge

Have you heard of the Brehon Law? I found this so interesting though I will just touch upon it here. The Brehon law is restorative justice rather then punishing justice. Compensaiton is given rather then punishment and all is made known. for example of someone does you wrong by stealing from you, they will have to work off what they stole and it will be made known that you must do so. In the past, under the Brehon law, if you killed someone, like your neighbors son, you had to pick up and take over this duties and more for the family to make sure that all is done and this is your payback for what you did. And, the people all know. If you do commit a crime but do not pay restitution, you are disgraced among everyone and often end up having to leave as no one wants to have anything to do with, and that is if you are not run out of town. This wisdom bids problem solving skills rather then punish and release so that people commit the same crimes again and again as they do now... and there is no compensation paid to the victims. They just suffer the loss of whatever it was and do without.. or grieve.



With this knowledge, the books ask what are the values that you live by. this is my thoughts

• Kindness to all
• acceptance of all who do not harm
• help those in need
• stay quiet and respectful until overly disrespected. 
• protect those who cannot protect themselves. 
• Be truthful without hurting others. 
• Take care of myself. 

What are the 3 most important to you? 

• Kindness to all
• help those in need
• acceptance to all who do not harm. 

Which are currently socially and politically correct? 

• I feel they all of my choice are

Which would you die for? 

• I do not know. 

Which individuals/groups strain your ability to be fair? 

• Politicians
• People who are overly disrespectful, mean, and abusive

To whom to do you have flashes of being cruel to? 

• no one, and it drives my friends and family crazy as I have been abused so often but cannot even treat my abusers badly. 

When you make a snap decision, do you regret? 

• Depends on the decision. 

Do you have an addiction that clouds your decisions? 

• yes, but not a typical addiction, not what you might think. 

Do you have a double standard towards anyone?

• No

Part of being  a Druid Magus is being a keeper of your ancestors, studying your ancestry. I'm not going to go into this as it's pretty self explanatory. 

Becoming a Druid PhD (Practicing Holistic Druid) Hee hee...

A series of questions follows that ask you to think deeply about yourself, to help you find your path, the meaning of your life, and the direction that you are meant to take. I have answered the questions but am still pondering the answers.... changes may come here so if you are interested, it might be something to check back on as I think about these questions and answers more.

What special gifts do you have?

• I see the good in everything and everyone
• Healing
• Telling the future, knowing what is to come.  

What have you learned to do exceptionally well?

• Learn/find information
• healing spells
• pendulum readings.  

What wisdom can you share with the world? 

• This is one I need to think about. With the studying I have been doing, right now I can say that I can share what I know about healing nature and it healing us. Taking care of our world as it takes care of us. Knowing that everything, all nature is alive and feels, hears, and communicates. And it's here to help us as we are here to help it. 
• I will continue to add to this ongoing if I remember too... :-) 

What do you want...

• Spiritually? 
• peace
• guidance
• to help others on their paths
• emotionally? 
• some to love and to love me
• a calmness and control over my own life and emotions
• material
• a home
• to be able to have the things i need without stress and constant struggle
• professional
• to teach children
• my store
• cognitive
• health
• social
• the ability to have and hang out with friends and family without the anxiety that I get now. 
• financial
• enough money to do what i need to do and support myself and my family. 
• physical
• loose weight
• be healthy
• what is not finished and with whom? 
• I need to get divorced from the man i have been separated from for 9 years. Finalize and closure in that situation. 
• anger towards the struggle of my life. 

Learning list: 

Read: books about magic, spirituality, Druidry

Learn: to control my own life, my emotions, career, destiny. 

Master: myself and to understand why people do what they do. 

What do you want to produce or put into the world? what do you want to leave in your name? 

• Peace, love, harmony
• teach self control
• empathy and passion
• belief in one's self as the divine. We are all divine. 

Who can help you with the last four areas above? 

I do not know. 

Bet you thought that was it, didn't you. Hee hee.. nope, not done yet. More questions, lol...

What are your abilities?

• finding things
• learning
• understanding
• working with troubled children
• gaining trust of people
• bringing people together

What resources do you have?

• Knowledge
• vendors
• people

What resources do you need? 

• money
• venue

What do you enjoy doing so much that you loose time doing it? 

• readings
• talking with people about my passion, my Druidry and my spirituality, my store. 
• working with children

What is your learning style? 

• hands on
• talking about it (hence the probably really boring blog, hee hee)

How do you go about a goal? 

• head on
• research
• planning
• talk
• write
• more planning (yes, i am a big fat planner, hee hee) 

Personal Mission Statement

I am a teacher and a healer. I find the items and people needed to help people on their paths. I am a collector and teacher of information. I am a Druid. 

Festival of Tara Code

"Instead of New Year's Resolutions, write your ethical code and live by it. Every three years, as was done at the Festival of Tara, revise your code to come more in line with your Druidic practice of justice, arbitration, and decision making."

My Tara Code: I will have faith that my future will take care of me.